The author suggested that the subject be approached with absolute normality since children will, as with all else, take their cue from the adults around them.
And then it just finished.
I, having been a gay child myself, stopped for a second and thought...well, this is very all very well and good but, how about we talk to children about gay children too?
About the fact that their school friends may be gay?
Or, that other great taboo, about the fact that they themselves may be gay?
To those who think, or would like to believe, that children are somehow unaware of things like this let me reassure you: they are not.
No, a child does not understand or needs to know about sex itself. Granted.
But children grow up very fast and they quickly become aware, in the most natural way, of who they are attracted to.
But I'm not talking about that.
I am talking about a parent –and other adults– doing their children a disservice, and a great deal of harm, if they raise a gay child and never even stop to consider –and in many cases refuse to acknowledge– that their little boy or little girl might be gay.
A bad example...
A couple of days ago I was in Sitges, Spain's Mediterranean gay capital, at an optician's buying some sunglasses.
A straight couple and their three or four year old son were being waited on by a gay optician.
The little boy needed sunglasses and they were trying on several different styles.
Finally they found one they liked and the little boy looked both very happy and very smart with them on.
The mother was looking at her son very lovingly, as was the boy's father, who proudly stated to all and sundry that: "All he's missing is the girl!".
I won't go into the objectification of women as accessories to men's lives, but it struck me as the usual kind of heteronormative expectations that parents, especially fathers, thrust upon their male offspring. That man has probably never stopped to think that his little boy may be gay. And that is the problem. Or maybe he has, and that makes it even worse.
Even though the man waiting on them was gay himself, this guy never stopped to consider that his son may be gay too.
It was an innocent enough comment on the proud father's part. But it is sad that a father's stock source of pride would be that his son should be straight too.
Growing Up Gay
Until I was a young adult I grew up thinking that I was the only gay boy on Earth.
I was certainly the only gay kid in school and the only gay anything in my life. I was it. My only reference for years.
Except, of course, I didn't know I was gay. I just knew I preferred boys to girls.
Preferred how? Preferred in every possible way.
I can't explain it beyond that.
And let me tell you, this knowledge was as daunting as it was frightening.
You see, I lived in a very hostile world: that of childhood.
People my age, that is other children, saw me as being different and, thus, targetable for abuse of all kinds.
Worst of all, I saw myself as different too. Part of it was me, and part of that was seeing myself through their eyes. They thought something was amiss with me, so I began to think the same way.
And all of this went on while I saw that I had
absolutely no place in my society whatsoever.
I was different.
Maybe even cursed.
And I braced myself at a very early age for a life where I would always be the odd one out, and would suffer for it.
Except I didn't really understand why exactly that was going to be the case. But it was. And nobody told me otherwise.
On the contrary, the loud and very clear message was that being like this was wrong in the worst possible way.
I can tell you this, no child should have to feel like that. Not ever.
Heteronormativity
Of course, parents prepare their children to be perfect little heterosexual people living in a heterosexually perfect world.
The models shown to us as children are very basic.
Heterosexual couples are the only ones most children are exposed to, so the message is that only they are allowed.
And the message isn't just, 'be like them'. It is 'be like them, or else'.
It is the 'else' part that destroys people's lives. The part that makes so many young gay people commit suicide.
That makes gay children the target of beatings and abuse by homophobes their own age.
"Eleven-year-old Carl Walker-Hoover, a Boy Scout and athlete, hanged
himself outside his room with an extension cord.
He had complained
repeatedly about being bullied at school, and particularly about being
called "gay" by classmates at his Springfield, Mass., middle school.
His
mom, Sirdeaner Walker, did everything right: She comforted her son and
supported him; she called school administrators and met them in person.
She was assured the situation would be addressed. But clearly the damage
was done—three months later, her son was dead."
And part of the problem is people not telling their children that there isn't just one way to be happy, or normal. That being straight is not the only way to be.
That there isn't just one type of normal couples.
One type of normal family.
The realities of life are hidden from them. And that is the problem.
A couple of days ago a writer friend of mine shared a teaching experience she'd had a few days earlier. She had asked her students to match some photographs of people by whomever they thought made the best couple. Some of the children started to pair up same-sex couples.
At that point, the school's teacher, or invigilator, or whatever that lady's position was, went over to the children who had done this and told them that no, that that was wrong. And that they should do boy-girl couples only.
Well, what if those students were gay themselves? How were they feeling? The message, again, is very clear. Only one type of sexuality allowed. And if you don't conform to it, then that is bad, and there is a problem with you. My friend apologized to the class and said that unfortunately theirs was a heteronormative school. And I loved that she told them that. At least somebody in their lives was challenging, or at least, explaining to them, that there is not just one way to be. That there is more to our species than just being straight. Yes, it was a religious school, but one set in a country which was one of the pioneers of gay marriage. So in spite of Pope Francis' apparently different approach to gay Christians (one which has yet to materialize in any positive way), the message is still: gay is bad, straight is good.
Although at this point in time one cannot expect the Christian church to teach anything other than heteronormative models (for whatever strange Biblical and religious reason they like to allude to), it is sad to see that, although we have come a long way on this issue, we still have a long, very long, way to go.
As always, parents are key in their children's education. But so is everyone else. Teachers, relatives, even strangers on the street.
You know the old saying, it takes a village to raise a child. Imagine that entire village being ok with that child being gay. Odd right?
Odd to think that every member of society should be ok with something as natural as homosexuality.
That is why, from my perspective, it is always surprising –as it is refreshing– to meet people who are not homophobic in any way. Because the norm is just the opposite.
I
have always been interested in writing. Putting words and thoughts on
paper fascinates and entertains me. It is difficult to explain why, but
it does. And it probably does not need really require an explanation.
I suppose that if I ever lost my sight, I would continue writing somehow, though I’m not sure how, or even why.
But then I don’t know why I write now. I just do.
I think that is true of most writers, they just write. They just do. Even bad ones.
And
yes, not everyone is a writer (though I will concede that everyone has a
story to tell). There are writers who are writers and are not sure that
they are. But they are.
PAIN
Hemingway himself once wrote: “There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.”
Was
he on to something? I have always wondered about that, but by and
large, I agree with him. A lot of pain goes into writing, and I don’t
know that everyone (including myself) can do it. Bleeding, though easy
enough, is certainly not painless. And it usually leaves a mark on your
body. I suppose writing does too.
And so I have read many writers who spoke about their craft. Our craft. This thing we do.
Some mention how easy it is, how relaxed. How it is a form of therapy for them.
Some 'frutti di bosco'.
I respect that. I understand that writing can be cathartic.
It brings things out.
But writing is also painful. Mostly painful.
Not just plain painful. We are talking pain of the fancy type. Caramelized frutti di bosco, pain with shredded white chocolate on top. And then some.
You
are giving birth to people, and ideas, and situations that did not
exist before. Much like children, there is a painful birthing process,
let no one tell you otherwise.
“If there’s a book that you want to read, but it hasn’t been written yet, then you must write it.” Toni Morrison.
So simple, right?
So straightforward.
Yet,
those simple words will haunt you as a writer no end. Creation can be
such an excruciating and long-winded process. And the worst part? You
never know when you are done. Not really.
Jackson Pollock was once asked about his work. “How do you know when you are finished with a painting?”
His reply?
“How you do you know when you are finished fucking?”
When
you read a book, you never learn about the pain behind it. You may read
author interviews where they tell you where they got the idea, or how
they went about putting it to paper. Yet you never hear about the pain
and heartache behind each chapter.
Behind every first line. Behind dialogue. Or the ending. Or the various bits in between.
You
don’t hear about editing, or self-censorship. About how you often think
you are an idiot for even attempting to do this. About how you can feel
insecure, lost, mistaken, amiss.
No, as readers, all we care is about the end product. The finished work.
“It’s none of their business that you have to learn to write. Let them think you were born that way”. Hemingway.
I
recall the books I’ve read. The authors I just simply couldn’t put
down. And I have tried to analyze what it was about them that kept me
reading. Tried to capture some of their brilliance in my own work.
It
is obvious that behind every thought, character and setting, there is a
degree of suffering on the part of the writing. Perhaps that is why we
react to books and literature as we do. Because we can recognize the
pain for we too have felt it.
That is how (probably) great authors are born. Through pain and suffering.
But, as with everything else in life, there’s different kinds of pain, and as readers we react to that which speaks to us.
Two
different people can be reading the same book by the same author and
react differently. One may love it, and the other hate it. One may think
it is brilliant, and the other might think it is just not worth turning
another page.
TOIL
A couple of weeks ago I was at my regular Tuesday meeting for writers in Madrid (The Madrid Writers Group).
We
were all sitting close to each other, writing away on that evening’s
exercise; I looked up at two of the people nearest to me. I was amazed
at how they wrote.
Both of them were writing on lined
(ruled) paper.
One of them was just ignoring the lines and writing in a
manner perpendicular to them. The other, more creatively, wrote
diagonally across both pages.
I was surprised!
Initially I thought it showed a great disrespect for the paper itself, this just ignoring its pre-set ‘paths’.
Then,
I figured, it just meant that this was the way the felt most
comfortable writing. Just as I am most comfortable writing within (more
or less) the lines and margins.
But ultimately, it was enlightening to see how they took a medium and redefined it.
Artists often do that.
I would argue it is one of the things that makes an artist: redefinition.
As
I walked home that night, I was glad to have been surprised that
evening. Their writing patterns had certainly been very enlightening.
Challenging even. It is what initially inspired this post.
‘Just So’
Having
seen how other people wrote, how they molded the medium to themselves,
and not the other way around, I started to think about how unimportant
-it would appear- the medium is.
Although it isn’t.
Not really.
Writing depends on so many other things too.
To write, as I believe, any writer will tell you, you need to be comfortable in every single way.
Everything must be ‘just so’.
The
right kind of pen and paper, or keyboard, or type writer. The right
type of lighting, of environment, of ambient sound. Yes, even that.
The
right kind of ambient noise is also extremely important for creativity,
which is why so many writers are to be found in coffee shops all over
the place.
And, according to many, there’s a reason for that:
“A
moderate level of noise enhances creativity compared to both low and
high levels of noise. Moderate background noise induces distraction
which encourages individuals to think at a higher, abstract level, and
consequently exhibit higher creativity”, (from the Rainy Café website).
But just in case you can’t go to one, you can always stream reality into your own setting.
So, there you are. With the right kind of everything in place. You, your stuff, and your ideas, all set to go.
So, in this day and age, what’s the first thing you do once you are all set to go?
That’s right, you take your phone out and check your messages.
God
knows you cannot write another word, your characters cannot utter
another sentence, and your plotline cannot advance, until you have
checked every single bit of social media going on in your life!
From
facebook to instagram, and everything else in between, your social
presence must be checked, re-checked, and updated before your
intellectual endeavors can take place.
Those cat pictures need your ‘likes’.
What your friends had for dinner last night need a little ‘heart’ and a comment: “Wish I’d been there!”
Anything to avoid the pain that you know is coming, right?
So you do all that, and, somehow, manage to get it out of the way and concentrate on the task at hand.
Television serves many purposes aside from just entertainment. It informs and instructs, as best it can.
I
am sure that social anthropology draws a direct correlation between
society and the impact certain programs, or in fact, all programs, have
on the changing of attitudes of said society.
We all
know how the 1970s saw an explosion of programs where black people were
suddenly the protagonists and not merely bystanders.
Whether a
reflection of the Civil Rights movement of the 1960s, or just an effort
to cash in on a growing trend, the fact is that these shows did their
fair share in normalizing, or helping to normalize, race relations in
America.
‘Good Times’ was certainly one of my favorites as a kid in the 1980s. But I also enjoyed ‘The Jeffersons’.
Of
course, at the time, I saw them as merely entertaining television. I
was too young to think about watching a ‘black’ sitcom, or a ‘black’
anything. I was just watching TV.
In
my mind, then and now, these were just television shows which made me
laugh. I was not interested in categorizing them in any particular way.
They weren’t white, or black, or gay, or anything other than just
television.
Pioneer
And although television has dabbled with gay shows before, in fact as late back as the 1980s with Showtime’s Brothers
-which was the first time I saw a gay sitcom-, it still has floundered
here and there with a successful formula or with the public’s acceptance
of it.
Granted, Queer as Folk was a good show (although never as good as the British original), as were the L-Word and the magnificent Will & Grace but, of course, there’s always room for improvement.
There’s always other aspects which can be looked at.
There’s always something new to add.
Looking
So it was with some interest, and trepidation, that I started to watch ‘Looking’ about a month ago.
I taped the whole series (all 8 episodes) and, slowly, started watching it.
It follows the lives of three gay men, Patrick, Agustín, and Dom in and around the city of San Francisco.
From the first episode I was a bit underwhelmed.
I found it hard to believe that an adult gay male, Patrick, would be so inept at cruising.
I suppose the scriptwriter thought it was hilarious, but I admit that I was not much amused.
And the rest of the episode sort of read as kind of a Tales of the CitycumSex and the City, minus the clever parts… off steroids.
And I had, or have, other issues with it too.
I
have to say that two weeks went by before I bothered to watch the
second episode. My heart was not on it. Yet I also didn’t erase the
show.
I just had to find the right moment.
Eventually I did.
Did the show improve?
Well, yes. Here and there. Sort of. In places.
But there were, are, things which just simply make me go hmm…
Like, for example, Richie,
a character who is very Catholic, and gay, and has no issue with the
clash between his sexuality and his faith (if he is enlightened about
it, like most gay cathols I know, it is not coming through in the show).
Not just that, he sort of likes a guy and wants him to wear an ‘escapulario’, a scapular, right away.
Is that what he asks of all his boyfriends?
Yes, I found that weird.
Also, the whole issue with Richie being uncircumcised.
What is the big deal? As far as I know, being ‘au naturelle’ in the US is seen as quite desirable in the gay world. But not this guy? Not Patrick?
And with Agustín being a non-productive artist. Or a self-defeating artist. And mostly a bit of an asshole…and yet you like him. Then you don’t.
Or with Dom liking only younger men, but somehow magically falling for Scott Bakula as Lynn.
Believable yes, but no the way it is shown on Looking.
Also, lesbians, in that great gay city, are mostly not around in this show. Yes, I get it, it is about gay men. But it just seems odd.
And…sorry but is San Francisco populated by just hispanics and whites? No black people? Nobody from Asia? Hello?
And one final also: Doris. I feel for the poor actress who plays her, Lauren Weedman. Doormat does not even begin to cover it.
Why does this character exist? All she seems to do is cater and kow tow to Dom’s every whim.
Unloved, unlikeable, and bordering on annoying.
For a fag hag, she is certainly not doing well for herself.
Finally, and call me crazy, is it too much to ask that the city’s multifaceted gay community be semi represented?
And what about the issues facing LGBT people today?
What about gay marriage? Social discrimination? Bullying? HIV?
None of these have been talked about yet.
Now, the positive side.
However,
I must say, that for all my complaints, for all the show’s
shortcomings, I liked it. Or at least, I like that it exists.
For one thing, it is very nice to look at.
The
cinematography is beautiful here and there. And I like that they show
you parts of the countryside around San Francisco which you don’t often
see on TV or in films.
The music is well chosen. Or if not, at least I like it.
And
the plot lines, though apparently absent at times, or just plain
convoluted others, do seem to reflect the daily lives of the characters
(all but Doris, of course).
I also like that the characters come across as regular people. Not the über-rich
A-Gay of other shows; not the to-die-for looks of stereotypical gay
characters; no VIP, glamorous lives which seem far removed from the
reality of many gay men's lives.
These three come across as regular guys with regular problems.
How
to deal with an open relationship, and yourself. How to deal with
yourself and a boyfriend-love interest of a different background from
yours and a British boss who has the hots for you. How to deal with
being a waiter at 40, trying to make it in the world, not kill your ex,
and falling for an older guy, and yourself.
At the end
of the first season it seems like all three of them have gone full
circle. Yet they are still “looking”. For love?
For solace? For answers.
Dom is going for Lynn, Agustín is out of his boyfriend’s home, and life, and living with Patrick, as he was in the beginning, and Patrick, who started the series failing Cruising 101, has graduated to cheating boyfriend, and maybe even power bottom.
Although this may not be the greatest gay show ever, I would venture that it has potential.
And
even if the show tanked, even if there is a lot of room for
improvement, as I always say, some visibility is better than NO
visibility.
Remember, Queer as Folk ended in 2005 and Will & Grace in 2006. We are in 2014, and Modern Family can only do so much.
Last year I read an article, probably written by an American author, which talked about the benefits of keeping a “blessings journal”.
This tied in with something I saw on Pinterest: a blessings jar.
The person who posted the image on that site was also American.
Is their nationality important? In a way, yes.
How could it not be?
For
some strange reason, Americans these days (and for a long time now)
seem to be intent on improving their lives (in a way other nationalities
do not, or do but differently), and they seem to think that these
little tips help them to do so.
I am not well-versed
on anyone’s life other than my own, so I don’t know if these ideas
actually help, hinder, or have no impact on the quality of life.
Nevertheless, the “blessings journal”
idea has stuck around in my head since it seems like an unusual enough
thing to do… and diametrically opposed to my usual penchant for a “Calamities & Damnations Journal.”
Although
I am not about to list the month’s blessings, the idea has inspired me
to write this post, which is just a recap of those things which have
happened in my life this month and which I think worthy of a highlight.
Looking back, it was a busier month than I originally thought.
That can only be a good thing.
1- The Choir
About
three months ago a friend of mine invited me to go along with him to
choir practice. He and his brother have been going there for about five
years, and they are always looking for male voices, he says.
He
convinced me to come along, no need to audition, and just join.
I had been in a choir in High School, and I have always loved singing, so, out of the blue came this opportunity.
I went along with him and met his buddies.
Because
we are in Spain, and I am American, they quickly asked me to help them
with their English. The choir, you see, is a Gospel choir, and most of
what they sing is in English.
So for about an hour or so, until the director arrived, I helped them out with their pronunciation.
Then
they practiced, and I stood by in a corner, listening. My friend told
the Director who I was afterwards, and he said in a very polite, yet
stern manner, that they had just had auditions, and that I could try out
in January.
So that was that.
My
friend told me that this was very unexpected, but nevertheless would
love it if I came again and helped out the choir with their English.
Which I did, over the next couple of months.
And in
December the choir had a concert, and I was there, in the audience,
listening. Afterwards some of them came up to me, like children who’ve
done something they are proud of, and asked about their performance.
“Was it good?” “Did we sing well?” “Was the English ok?”
So, slowly, I had become a sort of choir consultant.
Then, early in January, so early in fact I was still abroad, I got an email inviting me to audition.
Yes, panic mode.
I had not prepared anything and they were asking for a recording before giving me any further details.
As
soon as I got back to Madrid I contacted my friend and, together, on
the very last day of the deadline, we sent off three short songs sung
acapella.
One day later I was told to go the very next day, Sunday, and audition. Which I did.
That very afternoon the choir met for their first rehearsal of the year. And I was there, still as their ‘English’ consultant.
The
director, having heard me a few hours earlier, was very friendly, and
even said, I think in an attempt to come across as empathic, that I
should have sent the recording earlier.
So, one week later, I was told I was in the choir. So now, I sing in a gospel choir. In Madrid.
I
had my first choir rehearsal last Sunday. I knew bits of the songs,
none of the choreography, and I got to talk to other members in a more
inclusive manner.
You see, now I was officially one of them.
That felt good.
2- Breaking Bad
Perhaps
a strange thing to highlight, but I have to admit that I was the last
person on Earth to have missed every single season of this ‘cultural
phenomenon’ and to show very little interest in it.
Some work colleagues convinced me to give it a try; so I did.
Taking
advantage of the fact that my cable provider permits me to download
entire seasons of a few, select, shows, I did, and thus far I’ve watched
the entire first season and I’ve started on season 2.
No,
I’m not impressed. It is ok, but the only character I actually like is
Walter Junior, or Flynn, as he is being called in season 2.
Skyler gets on my nerves.
As do the sister and brother-in-law characters.
We’ll see…
3- Online Mags
Ok, I love magazines, and I love online magazines. Why? The photographs look so much better!
So this month I’ve added a couple of them to my tab list: Vice and I-D.
4- Grooveshark
I am a music freak, and a fan of Spotify.
But
I can only use it on some devices, so, like a fool, I began to use the
free online service, not knowing that eventually your 20 hours are up.
Basically the same, but with no hour limit; the interface is pretty cool.
I say re discover because I came across it a few months ago but forgot about it pretty quickly.
I’ve also been listening to music sets on soundcloud. Less cool, less interface rad, but interesting sounds just the same.
As always, don’t judge a song by its album cover…though, of course, we all do.
5- Trips to the UK
Ok, last year I went to the UK only twice. May, and December. My family are still there, but I was not able to go more.
This year, however, I will be there twice before June, which is a step up from last year.
This is a highlight because I’ll be going for different reasons, at different times, and it is all sorted in early January.
So, something to look forward to.
6- Writing Vs. Life
Ok,
this is not exactly a highlight, quite the opposite.
I have not been
able to write much of my Sci-Fi novel this month.
I met up with a friend
a couple of weeks ago and managed all of 6 words.
Not good.
Nonetheless,
the highlight here is that I have managed to think about it and about
how it should develop.
In other words, although I’m not writing it, I am
plotting it out somehow, which is a positive thing.
7- Democrats Abroad
Like
a good little American, I’m in touch with an American expat
association. In this case, Democrats Abroad in Spain.
I was semi active
with them a couple of years back, but kind of stop attending the various
parties and events because they either clashed with something, I was
out of town, or I was plain tired.
Well,
a couple of months ago, DA organized a very interesting meeting at one
of the member’s home where a journalist who had just been reporting from
Syria (as a freelancer) was giving a talk on the situation there.
The other thing that I am is interested in all things foreign-affairs related.
So
meeting Anna Therese Day was a very enlightening experience. She
regaled us with the horrible tales human conflict manages to create,
with her problems getting American editors to value the work of
freelancers in the area, with the fact that, at the age of only 25, she
is already better versed on the situation there than Anderson Cooper,
and that she trains the new arrivals there. And more things.
She has a great perspective in life, and I only wish her all the best in her professional endeavors.
If you want to see what she is up to, you can follow her on twitter: @AnnaOfArabia
But
it doesn’t end there. I volunteered to be the photographer at one of
their voter registration and fundraising events, which was fun since, as
the guy with the camera standing by the photocall, you get to meet a
lot of people there. That was also a highlight since I think that,
maybe, just maybe, I made a friend. Maybe even two.
8- Instagram junkie
Ok,
this is to do more with the fact that I now have an iPhone, courtesy of
my partner, and I can do what I’ve been wanting to do for years: walk
around the city with a small camera and take snapshots of anything, and
everything, I see.
My partner says I’ve gone camera crazy.
And he is right.
9- Books junkie
One can never have enough hats, gloves and shoes, said Patsy Stone once. Nor books, say I.
After
my Christmas visit to my sister’s I am having a small percentage of my
book collection mailed over to Spain. A very small percentage.
I
have also began to rearrange some of my bookshelves at home.
Rediscovering titles I had forgotten about, and giving it a more ordered
appearance.
I have also been expanding my library this January. Here’s the link to my Shelfari,
where I’ve been uploading titles lately, in no particular order other
than the new ones get added rather quickly, and the older ones in a much
slower fashion.
Yes, Shelfari, not Goodreads, where I also have an account.
This is a bit like Beta Vs VHS.
Who’ll win?
Nobody knows but of the two I rather interact with Shelfari. I think it looks better.
10- Interior Decor
I have a sofa from Ikea, the one with the changeable covers that everyone has. But I need a new one.
So a couple of months ago I discovered a Facebook page where people sell their things. Mostly expats living in Madrid.
And this lady put a photograph of an Ikea sofa she was giving away. I was, of course, very interested, and so was everyone else.
She was a bit odd to deal with since it seemed like she was playing all interested parties against each other.
By
this I mean that she would only contact you after someone else had
dropped out of the race. Which made arrangements near nigh impossible
to make.
But I persevered. I was interested. And she was very very keen on somebody taking the couch of off her hands. Very keen indeed.
But she began to flounder.
She
began to insist I came to see/take the sofa in question.
So I asked for
another view of the sofa, since the one she had put up on facebook was a
screenshot from Ikea’s website.
She did, but it was on its side, and I could not really make it out very well. Was it the same sofa?
Once
again she was contacted by someone who could take it off her hands, so
she changed her tune with me and put me back at the end of the line.
Fine, I thought, the sofa in question did not appear to be the one I was after. But the whole thing backfired on her, again.
The person who had come to take the sofa had to return it. It was too big for her flat!
So
she was all sweetness and apologies again when she contacted me. So, I
asked her once again about the sofa model.
Was it the one from Ikea that
she originally posted on Facebook?
No, it was not. She insisted that I came and took it, but, hello? Wrong sofa = No deal.
So,
early in the month, I thought I would walk past Zara Home.
They were
having the usual January sales and I came across a sequin cushion which,
I thought, was €5,99.
When I took it to the till, it
had gone up to €19,99, which was its full price.
Like and idiot, when I
was walking around the shop the price tag fell out somewhere.
So, of course, I had
to go back to the cushions table and find another one. Which I did.
And
when I did I thought, great!, a matching pair.
No such
luck.
That one didn’t have a price tag either. So the girl at the
till called the on-duty manager, who looked at me (like they always do
in Europe) as if I was trying to put one on them, and told me I had to
pay full price for the cushions.
“So, even though your entire store is on sale, you want me to pay full price for these?”
“Oh ok, then half price.”
“Even though you have marked these down to €5,99."
“But they don’t have a sticker.”
“But that is not my problem, I am your customer and you can’t expect me to …”
And that is where I stopped talking. It was useless.
Once again Europe’s approach to customer service won out, and I walked out, minus two cushions.
But
since I am on an interior decor bender, it seems, I have started to
pick up fruit boxes (it is strawberry season in Spain!) and taking them
home.
I have been using them to hold books, mostly, and I’ve had to
fight off my cleaning lady who throws them away whenever she comes
round.
You see, once home I wash them and leave them
to dry by the kitchen window. The cleaning lady sees them and assumes
they are trash, so out they go.
11- Shoes 2014
I’m
quite lucky that I live in one of the world’s shoe powerhouses.
Spain
has some great shoe designs and this season I have found myself in need
of new shoes.
Thus
far, taking advantage of the January sales, I’ve bought a pair of dark
brown suede brogues, and a pair of Caterpillar boots, which I began
wearing back in the early 1990s and have been wearing ever since.
However,
not all is buybuybuy.
As they say, recycle or die, so I’ve also
mended the soles on another pair of dress shoes which I bought in London
about three years ago. Unlike the UK, or Texas, living in Spain means
you actually have seasons.
So
you have Winter shoes, and Summer shoes. So whereas a pair of shoes in
London would last months, or a year, here they last about the same
amount of time, but spread out over a couple of years.
Now
that I live in Madrid, I have discovered the short life-span of
thin-soled shoes, which tend to last but one season and hardly ever make
it to next year’s Summer season.
12- Probiotics
Over
the Christmas season I had an abscess in my mouth. Since I was
traveling so much, I found it impossible to go to the doctor, unless I
went to the ER, which would have taken out a chunk of time out of my
daily routine. I was at first in the UK, and I could not get any
antibiotics for love or toffee! I needed a prescription.
So I endured
with this thing in my mouth as best as I could.
When we got back to Spain, I was still not in Madrid, and I tried to buy antibiotics. No luck.
Thankfully
my partner’s sister was friends with a pharmacist who, and only because
I was family, gave her a box of antibiotics for me.
I was so grateful!
The
other thing this lovely pharmacist did was recommend I took
pro-biotics, to overcome the effect antibiotics have on your plumbing.
This was news to me, but I got some and, true enough, for the first time
ever I didn’t have the usual digestive tract side effects. But I did
have some new ones.
Especially the first day I started taking them.
It seems that they have a very efficient laxative effect. I was very effectively “laxed”.
13- A death in the political family
Death
is something which is with us at all times. I still don’t know how to
deal with it and my heart goes out whenever I hear somebody loses a
loved one.
This January, my partner lost an uncle.
He went home for the funeral and stayed there for the weekend.
14- Thespian Days
I love going to the theater. I love a good play. And I really appreciate good acting.
This
month, on the weekend my partner I were meant to go to the theater
together he had to go to home for a funeral (see above).
So I had three
tickets (the friend who was coming with us had to cancel too) to play
with.
I invited two friends who don’t much like each
other — which is ironic since I met one through the other– and we went
to see a play by Argentinian playwright Claudio Tolcachir: Emilia.
The
writing was amazing, and the acting was very good too. He has very
quickly turned into one of my favorite playwrights these past few years.
The
cast (above) were all well-known Spanish actors, and the audience was,
for some strange reason, mostly retired citizens, which all three of us
thought was unusual.
15- Elliot Murphy
A few years ago, my partner and I were lucky enough to go to Paris in March, and go to Elliot Murphy’sbirthday concertat New Morning. And we did this a couple of years in a row.
This year we talked about it, but, given that the year is gearing up to be very travel heavy, we decided to skip Paris.
Oh well, no Elliot Murphy this year… or so I thought.
Turns
out he has been coming to Madrid for the past 10 years and the weekend
my partner did come, he and the friend who cancelled, and myself, all
went to the Madrid concert. And it was great.
Especially the rendition of ‘Rock Ballad’.
Masterpiece!
And
when we went out, I came across a small fruit box (this time
blueberries) which is now at home, waiting for some books to be put
inside it (see above).
16- Game of Thrones
There
are some programs which you faithfully and ardently watch, some that
you watch whenever they are on, never making all that much of an effort
to catch them, and some that just pass you by. That you just don’t
really want to engage with.
Such was the case with Breaking Bad (see above).
Everyone was watching it, and I was in some other alternative universe, bypassing all the hoopla.
This had also happened when Twin Peaks was on.
That
entire fad passed me by and I think that, thus far, I’ve only watched
about half an episode. That is not to say I didn’t like the theme tune, I
loved it and Julee Cruise.
But
that’s about as far as my involvement with that series goes (that and
the fact that I bought the first season on DVD about three years
ago-though it remains unseen).
So when Game of Thrones came out, I was a bit blah about it. What little I saw of it on TV just didn’t appeal to me.
I
ended up taping the entire first season (just in case I eventually
liked it), and, a few months after it ended, started to watch the first
episode.
I watched the first 15 minutes and switched off. I even thought of deleting the whole thing.
But
people kept saying how good it was, how I had to watch it, how I would
love it. So weeks later, maybe months, I watched the whole first
episode.
No. I was not hooked. But I decided to watch the second episode. I think I began to like it only about half way through it.
Then
I taped the second season, which is incomplete since I started watching
the first season fully halfway through it. Then the third.
So,
finally, I have been able to start watching the second season. I still
don’t think I am hooked, and the show is getting a bit too Hollywood for
my liking, but I am glad I’m watching it.
17- Aretha Franklin
So when my partner was last in Madrid we had this idea that we would go to Ikea and look at furniture.
Maybe buy an armchair. Maybe a new sofa (see above). Maybe a new mattress. So we left home and ran some quick errands throughout the city.
It
was a sunny day, like most Winter days tend to be in Madrid, and for
some reason, the temperatures were almost high. So we decided to have a
coffee before heading off to Ikea and spending the rest of the day
there. Not that we wanted to do that, we didn’t, but it is what ends up
happening every time we go.
So there we were, having a coffee, and then I said to him “Should we skip Ikea? I mean, who wants to be indoors on a day like today?”
He
laughed because he was thinking the same thing, and we decided to bail
on the Swedish smorgasbord, stopping, instead, on a nearby record shop.
Yes, records. How retro! Right?
But
no, I was not after records for their sake, I just wanted to see what
they had, and eventually I would move on to the CD section like I always
do.
So
there we were, just perusing, when I came across something I hadn’t
seen since I left the US: Aretha Franklin’s album from 1986: Aretha.
My first album of hers ever.
I
was hooked. I wanted it. I had never wanted an album cover so much
before. Something about it (Warhol, hello?) made me want to buy it.
I thought it would be interesting to put it on the wall. Album covers is such a lost art I think.
Yes, of course, CDs still keep it alive, but it is not the same thing. You can’t appreciate a great cover on a CD.
So I put it aside and continued looking. I found a couple of Grace Jones albums and thought I’d take all three.
My
partner offered to buy them, in fact, but I declined. We were having
such a nice day out that I thought I could do without them.
I didn’t want to carry things, I just wanted to enjoy myself.
So I left all three there… (to be continued).
18- Parlez-vous Français?
The other thing that happened this month is that I had a couple of friends visit Madrid. Both French.
One lives in Sitges, the other in France. But they were both here, along with two of their friends.
They
all got a place together not too far from me and they had me round for
dinner one evening; it was a great opportunity to practice my French.
And how good is my French?
Well, good enough to half argue, half coherently, on the following subjects:
Masculinity (or why do you think that being camp is not an inherent part of masculinity?); Time (or I think time is man-made and there is no such thing as time); God (or just because the Bible says things happened and certain people lived does not actually mean that things did happen or that those people actually existed).
I tried to put my points across on these major subjects (but there were others– such as Mylène Farmer, for or against?) as best as I could with varying degrees of success.
On the masculinity front, it was 5 against one (not me). On the God thing, it was, again, five against one (again, not me) and on the time thing, it was three against two, and one undecided.
No,
you never know how bad your French is until you realize you can’t
explain why you think time does not exist and you have to switch to
English to get your point across... to a group of people whose first
language is not English…
My bad.
19- Home blackout!
And just the other day I came home to a dark apartment. What a surprise that was!
I wasn’t sure what the problem could be since the lights in the landing were on and I came up on the elevator.
So I called the light company only to be told that since there was not a problem in the building, I was on my own.
“Call your insurance company. The meter is not out resposibility”.
So
I finally used a candle a dear friend of mine from Mexico gave me when I
first moved to Spain years ago and which had remained unused.
Yes, gifts eventually come into their own. Somehow.
I
also had some unused tea lights somewhere and, I don’t know how since I
don’t smoke, I found a lighter in one of the kitchen drawers.
So
I called my partner, who gave me the number for the insurance company,
and called. They would be round in about three hours or less.
The electrician called and said he’d be round in an hour and a half more or less. In the meantime I was in the dark.
It
was interesting being at home with the lights out. At first, before I
lit the candles, I was just enjoying, albeit briefly, the semi-darkness
of the rooms. I live on a fourth floor studio flat, and the street
lights managed somehow to light up the space. I could have sat there for
a while, but I would have fallen asleep very quickly, and I would have
gotten cold very quickly too.
My iPhone was almost out
of juice, and the candles were starting to make me wheezy. I am
asthmatic, so I can’t be around too many candles. Especially not
paraffin candles.
So, I took my Mac, put a coat on, and left the apartment.
I
went to Café Figueroa, my new writing destination, and stayed there for
about 40 minutes. I didn’t want the electrician to have to wait and
leave.
So I went back and sat in the dark for a while.
Eventually the electrician came round.
He buzzed and I let him in. I expected him to come straight up, but he went, as I foud out later, right for the meter room.
He called me.
“Hello, I’m going back to my van. They’ve taken your fuses.”
That I was not expecting.
Within 10 minutes the lights came back.
He came up and I signed a paper.
“One of your neighbors must have taken it.”
“Did they take anyone else’s?”
“I don’t know, I just checked yours.”
No time for chit chat. He was in a hurry.
20- Epiphany
My last hightlight of the month is really one of the first ones.
My partner and I organized a dinner party for Epiphany, just like we did last year.
At
last year’s event, we asked our guests to bring along those gifts they
had received throughout the year which were just gathering dust at home
and they had no clue what to do with them.
At that event, and following the rules, one of our friends left home with 4 identical leather wallets.
All in all it had been a great party.
So this year we thought we would do the same.
I have to say that, as far as I’m concerned, I did’t do too badly.
My favorite gift this year? A rainbow-colored plastic slinky.